First week of school has had its ups and downs, its benefits and its challenges. So far, going through a survey of OT has been nice especially with Exodus, and I got three albums of the hip hop lyrical theologian, Shai Linne. His beats are awesome FO SHO YEYEYE. But I want to take a step back for a deep moment to consider and for your consideration if you are reading this blog on a topic that I need to remind myself and hopefully for you as well what may be on your mind and heart.
Last night CCM was great, I missed these general meetings of CCM so much. Despite it being a parachurch ministry, it felt like home in a way. This ministry has taught me a lot of things with regards to the scriptures, theology, and the gospel and it still does to this very day. Last night one of our advisors spoke upon the holiness of God, a simple yet very applicable topic that he made in his sermon. As college students, we are given a great deal of choices, responsiblity and independence in what we choose to do especially with our faith.
Even though I am a senior, you'd expect for me to have everything naturally down, but in reality I have a lot of things on my mind big decisions that I want to make and see things happen now but I just have been losing patience. The message made me think just in terms of like what am I doing so far and where I have gone wrong. In my last post, I kind of touched on the aspects when Tim Keller discusses the difference between religion and Christianity, how religiousness is comprised of doing things to feel accepted while Christianity we obey as a response. The thing is I kind of lost track with my mind and heart being elsewhere but tonight did touch upon the subject of what I need to focus on. For me just look at the note when I crack open my bible I need to think and meditate on that and also Ephesisans 2:1-10, God is sovereign one who indeed provides salvation not by what I do. Dang, just writing that and me looking over it just speaks truth.
So far in my recollection, from Desiring God by John Piper and a mini version of Living the Cross Centered Life by C.J. Mahaney, both authors talk about the subject: "Stop listening to yourself and start preaching to yourself". I listen to myself a lot at times, and in a way it can lead to self conciousness to some degree and this way of thinking can sometimes be integrated in today's circle of evangelicalism. We ask ourseleves, is my theology and doctrine in reflected in what I do, is what I'm doing sinful or stumbling that person. Although in one of the letters that Paul writes to Corinthians stresses that we must examine ourselves and I am not trying to advocate by sayng we shouldn't, but the scriptures also talks about being reminded of our calling. Our call to live lives worthy of the gospel, not by our own righteousness but because of Christ. I should know this by now to make it a habit but it just shows how careless or how forgetful I can be at times. Nonetheless, with this reminder let us fight the good fight of faith and run this race with perseverance. YEYEYE.